Tuesday, October 26, 2010

As I re-read my post from Sunday night, I realized that I haven't succeeded this week. What I did was become overwhelmed with life on Monday and spent most of the day close to tears, so what was the first thing I did..oh yeah, I put the ole food in my mouth. Food, its always such a comfort when I don't want to think about what hurts the most.

I didn't mention that I graduated in July with my undergraduate degree and I am now in my masters program. I have a lot of homework in this program. I write best when I am munching. I can always concentrate better when I have something to throw in my mouth. So, Monday was a wash. Today is Tuesday, although I haven't had much, what I have had is not great. I say this while I have brownies cooking in the oven. Got to love self control. Weigh-in is in a couple days so I need to get busy and start behaving.

Last night I was in the middle of presenting William Glassers Choice/Reality therapy when I realized what a horrible counselor I am going to be. I realized that everything I believed in with what Glasser teaches I don't personally practice. First we are the only ones that can control US. Second the only two things we can control is our thoughts and actions.

When I put this knowledge to use in my life, I realize that I have a long way to go personally. That I need to realize I can't control others. I can love them and hope that they are truthful and honest with me. I can love them and hope that they love me back. But I can only control myself. This relates to my weight loss because I realize that I am the only one that can control what I eat and if I exercise.

Lessons from Glasser are to figure out what you want, what is it going to take to get you to that goal, start doing what it takes to get where you want to be, and evaluate..is it working for you? If the answer is no, then figure out where to change those behaviors.

I want to feel healthy, its not about a number for me, but if I had to pick one it would be some where around 150. My inner self wants to say 130, but that is unrealistic. to get to where I want to be, I need to make healthy choices, exercise regularly, change my behavior where food is concerned. Stop using food as a reward, a punishment, or when I am upset.

I have often had aaahhhaaa moments before, sometimes I act on them and other times after the ahhhaaa goes away, I sometimes forget I had that moment and go back to life as usual.

My hope is that since I have taken the time to write my thoughts down, that I also take the time to use this moment and put it to use in my life. If I am going to expect my clients to do the work, then I need to do the work!

Thanks for listening,

Sandie